SAHM

I grew up with a Stay At Home Mom.. a rather unhappy one. That's where all my reservations and insecurities stem from.

My husband wants me to be at home with our kids. I am so grateful that this is even an option for us, but I can't help to feel bad about it.

Growing up, I witnessed my mom being very unhappy with my dad basically micromanaging their bank account. Contastantly questions her purchases and whatnot. It made my mom feel bad and she would always talk down about herself to us because of this.

Now that I have my own kids and the opportunity to be home with them, I'm feeling trapped. I would love to but on the other hand, I can't imagine anything worse (solely because I won't have my own money).

This has been weighing heavily on me and I just can't shake the feeling that I'm repeating toxic cycles. I feel myself feeling bad about myself and I just can't end up like my mom in this way.

What do I do!?